I havent updated my blog since, well, Last year.
Even though its hasnt been that long.

Haish~
So tomorrow i am going to be registering for my Unit Beruniform, Persatuan and my Course

Lets go one by one,

Last year i was in KRS,
even though with all the glory of it, my dDad isnt happy for one bit. LITERALLY!
He was pissed off that i was going for practice every weekend.
One day he said'Apa faedahnye berkawad tu, Abang?' in a sarcastic way, which i refuse to answer, assuming it was rhetorical.
He even FORBID my sis to enter KRS, when she asked me,'Best tak masuk KRS?'
He said 'Tak payah la masuk, Kakak oi, Takde faedahnye, Jadi hitam ada la'
I was quite the whole night until i went to bed.
So NOW, I dont even know if i should join KRS again, or join another Unit Beruniform,
even so,
Think about, every team has to be in a kawad right??

Moving on,
As for my persatuan/club, i am 100% ill be in the counseling bussiness once again this year.
No hesitation about that
The only thing is, should i enter a SECOND club i.e academic club.
I was thinking about entering the English or maybe, juuust maybe enter other club,
i have time until recess...i hope~

And lastly,
My studies,
I have always thinking to get BIO, solely because i thought thats what my parents want
But then i have been considering LK, a subject that i, kinda have more interest in than BIO.
I just feel like it is more suitable to what i want to be in the future than BIO
I dont want to be a doctor or pharmacist or anything that have to do with anything medical.
So now its either BIO or LK.

I NEED TO MAKE UP MY MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm one of those people who shed silent tears in the shower. I'm one of those people who hugs their knees and bury their heads in them. I'm one of those people who pick on everything they see in the mirror. I'm one of those people who run their fingers all over their body hoping it'll heal. I'm one of those people who are so badly damaged yet everyone seems to think otherwise. I can't help but be just another one of those people and feel sorry for myself and I know there's no way I'm ever going to get out of this spiral of misery.

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