Ok so im back in my house and HUGE surprise, ALL THE FISHS ARE DEAD!!! some were floating on the water surface and some even some-what glued on the aquarium walls. It was a scary thing to see. One fish was found on the floor, rock-hard and almost lose all of its flesh. shivers~


and then my dad asked me to clean the tank and throw everything gown the toilet bowl. i was like WHAAAAT!!! i mean it was foul-smelling, ugly-looking... it was NASTY!

i know, i know, i had seen so many blood and gore on TV, internet. Friday the 13th, nightmare on elm street, Chucky, Final Destination, SAW all of those movies and never had i felt so sick and wanted to barf during any of those movies. but this is REAL LIFE we're talking about here.

But in the end i knew i had to suck it up and start flushing fishs down the bowl and scrubbing the tank. and now its clean. Congratz to me!!!!!

I'm one of those people who shed silent tears in the shower. I'm one of those people who hugs their knees and bury their heads in them. I'm one of those people who pick on everything they see in the mirror. I'm one of those people who run their fingers all over their body hoping it'll heal. I'm one of those people who are so badly damaged yet everyone seems to think otherwise. I can't help but be just another one of those people and feel sorry for myself and I know there's no way I'm ever going to get out of this spiral of misery.

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