hey guys, so im down llike loopy, delirious n i noe ppl hev real problems in life n this is not a real problem.totally stealing dat phrase. i was suppose 2 get a hair cut on sunday but ma parents had gone shopping 4 almost the whole day n left me with ma sis alone in the condo, n when the get bak... all they noe is whine bout how the house is messy lah, kotor lah, i mean they're the one having fun n we get the scolding from em. WTH. n they s8 '2 lah keja hangpa, dok umah sorang2 tgk tv, main game,tgk tv, main game. orang p shopping x mau ikot, syg nk tggl katil' F*** THIS!!! they didnt even asked me if iwanna come n tehy complai, imean WTH!!!! n my dad was complaining cuz i didnt get a haircut. F*** YOU 'DAD' . since when do u even care bout my life! uve been apart with  ur family 4 soo long n we rarely c u n now ur talking 2 me like u noe evrytin bout me n how im such a disappointment. HELLO. uve only been around 4 such short time 2 even noe me n all. U SUCK!!!!

n 2day he told me 2 get a haircut @ the barber shop. i didnt go cuz i totally 4got cuz i got a lot of stuffs in my head. i even 4got 2 go 4 rumah sukan practise. n @ 5 he called 2 ask me is i had a haircut n i s8 no. n he scold me force me 2 go get a haircut n it was about 2 rain n there was lightning n i s8 'hari nk ujan r' he s8 pakai r payung naik basikal. i s8  nnt blk ujan. he s8 alahai. awat calaq ka klau kena ujan. i s8 sok a sklh, he s8 apa kene mengena ngan sklh plak. n i jus stay quite. so in my head i was like 'hello, rain can get me sick so wont b attending skol 2moro, n i wont pas pmr, n i will b studying @ sklh pondok'.

i was thinking of going 2 downtairs saloon n get it done there, but both were closed early. n i was thinking'hmm biarlah x potong, its not that long, i mean y u care bout my hair so much anyway. i noe u jus wanna hev anormal son nactually noes hoe 2 play sports n obey you n do anyting u say, w8 a minute, thats not a normal son, thats a ROBOT. i mean its not my fault i hev a curly hair n gorws into an afro after sometime. itsYOUR'S cuz its ur dna, ur gens n mom, y did u even marry this guy???'

sooo, its almost dinner n i dunno wut he'll blab bout then but we'll c this goes, not caring bout me is jus wut i want but if hess complaining bout how im not the son he wanted n there more 2 this entry l8r...


hey guys im bak n guess where i was... urgh i noe.. its not even funny, it cost me 15 rggt n it was like over 30 mins lol. n the worst things is i hev a marching practise 2moro n i hev no insulator n my brain will be like literally boiling. wanna noe wut he s8,'hang bila nk gunting rambut, abg long. x p cr kedai hang gunting mlm nie jgk. JGN BLK SMPAI HANG GUNTING RAMBUT!!!' *look left*look right. WTF was that about! hev u gone loony in the brain!!! thk ALLAH i ran into a sloon n the bald man was so nice 2 me.hehe. n he ask me'u melayu ka?' i s8 yea. n he s8 'owh u nmpk mcm cina' n i jus smiled. i get that all the time. but i dunno if there IS any chinese bloo in me...biarlah rahsia~

I'm one of those people who shed silent tears in the shower. I'm one of those people who hugs their knees and bury their heads in them. I'm one of those people who pick on everything they see in the mirror. I'm one of those people who run their fingers all over their body hoping it'll heal. I'm one of those people who are so badly damaged yet everyone seems to think otherwise. I can't help but be just another one of those people and feel sorry for myself and I know there's no way I'm ever going to get out of this spiral of misery.

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