this topic is heavy but



i think its maybe slightly better to be born as a transgender. like, you cant exactly be labeled gay or lesbian or straight, and i think it is the only form of freedom to ones own gender/ sexuality in Islam. Like if youre a guy, youre bound to be straight by any means possible. and the same goes if your a girl. but if youre a transgender, people cant patronise you for their sexuality. of course until they discovered their sexuality, they must have a surgery to rid of either one of the sexual organ.

but then again, what if they are attracted to guys sexually, but their female organ is submissive. or if they are attracted to girls, but their female organ is more dominant to the male organ. does that make them gay or lesbian. or will they have to have a surgery based on their sexuality or their more dominant organ. of course then theres the risk or having a surgery. but what if their attracted to both gender, bisexual. do they have to keep both the organs.

idk where im going with this but this is whats in my head rn so..

I'm one of those people who shed silent tears in the shower. I'm one of those people who hugs their knees and bury their heads in them. I'm one of those people who pick on everything they see in the mirror. I'm one of those people who run their fingers all over their body hoping it'll heal. I'm one of those people who are so badly damaged yet everyone seems to think otherwise. I can't help but be just another one of those people and feel sorry for myself and I know there's no way I'm ever going to get out of this spiral of misery.

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